Beginning

The track in life changing,

New beginnings never ending,

Picking up the pieces in life

It’s slowly emerging,

The feeling of strength,

Frightening yet enriching,

Soul renewing, breathing once again,

Leaving the past behind,

Paving the way for more to come,

Enlightening how life is going,

Strange it feels, I’m less hurting,

Life is moving fast,

I’m no longer contemplating….

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Burn

I don’t want to struggle longer,

Your call broke me down,

For a moment i was stronger,

I’m starting to cry now,

The past you brought back,

The hurt you made me feel,

Why did you not pay attention,

To my never ending cries,

Why did you just pretend,

Remain stagnant,

Now time can turn back no more,

Why the sudden miss,

Why couldn’t you have love me the way i love you,

My heart is just aching now,

My head is spinning,

I have no feeling, just numb all over,

Should have heeded my wails,

Should have held me wen i needed you,

I am just lost for words now,

Please don’t hurt me longer………

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The Sun

The weather is slowly changing,

Dark clouds are turning to blue,

Chills i’m beginning NOT to feel,

The stars are visible, even when I’m not with you,

Sometimes I still think of you,

The beautiful sunrise distracts  me,

I smile when i see the sun, it makes me happy too,

It lifts my spirit and makes me feel,

Darkness invades my head no more,

I’m slowly stepping out from the shallow hole,

Trying to find my freedom and soul,

The sunlight seep through that hole and I got out,

Rainbows are slowly emerging,

I’m trying to let go, it’s hard,

The beautiful scenery so appealing,

I have to be brave and walk the path,

Father, walking with me, guiding me,

His footsteps in tune with mine,

I know I’m not alone,

For he made the sun and all it’s wonders..

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Bunch of Crap

Here is where I am again

Left on the bench, wondering

The roller coaster ride no longer appeals

Hanging on the bridge by one foot

I deserve this, this is punishment for my wrongs

I accept my fate, I’ll swing on the swing instead

Wow, the stars seems more outstanding..

Where are you? Aren’t you gonna see them with me?

Where’s the mat? Stories long gone…

Do I sound sane…cos i dont feel sane…

Drowning in my own blood, I cry out for you

Where are you? Bring me up ..

I want the slide instead………

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Moving on

I’m trying to move on in life,

Picking up the broken pieces of my heart,

How long can one survive,

With a shattered soul and aimless fate,

Past may leave a deep scar,

Chance gives a leap of hope,

Feel love from a far,

No more pain & suffering,

Im trying my best to move on,

Into a place of peace & tranquility,

Where smiles exist and i no longer frown,

I may not be filled with glory now,

Eventually though i know life would somehow takes its course,

& I’ll feel better once more,

I’m trying for myself to move on,

To remain sane & normal.

I should no longer drown in my tears,

Alive is how i want to feel,

If this is the path i have to take,

Then let it be dear lord,

For your hands i leave my fate,

I noe i’ll be ok at the end of the day….

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Confessions

I admit i still  love you,
I admit i regret leaving you,
I admit you hurt me real bad,
Make me wanna never love again,

I admit you are the love of my life,
My only love, till the end of time,
I admit no matter how much you hurt me,
Running to you is the first thing on my mind,

I admit i miss you every second,
I admit i wish things did not go so wrong,
I admit i blame myself for you going astray,
But what can i do now, when it’s all over & done,

I admit i long to wake beside you
However i don’t understand when u say your confused
I don’t understand why you cant think when i’m standing right before you
I feel you prefer a life without me, that’s why i have to leave

I understand it was you who ruin it
I don’t understand why i feel like shit
I understand it was you who gave us up
I dont understand why it is me who wants to make up

I need some assurance, some clarifications
What do you think & how do you feel
I need to move away if u want otherwise
I’ll be here to stay

I admit i was cruel to leave in a fit
However i felt what we had was no longer
Thaunting memories of your wrongdoing filled my head
Suspicions and shame, guilt & pain

Am i wasting my time
On my existing love for you
Should I close the chapter
To live life again…..

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Confused

Confusion lies in your mind,

Love lives in your heart,

Where is the feeling you once had,

I thought it would forever last,

I’m opening up my arms,

For us to take a chance,

Your fingers slipping away,

A sign to say you rather part,

Tell it to me straight,

& i’ll move away,

I’ll leave your sight,

If you do not want me to stay,

Should I bid farewell,

To my lovely knight,

Should I leave us to dwell,

& have sleepless nights,

I too am only human,

Emotions & feelings I’m made of,

Should I leave for sure,

Tell me, don’t make me love alone….

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Words

Speak the words I yearn to hear,

Revive my lifeless heart,

Speak the words,say you want me near,

I will run to where you are,

Reach out to me,

I’ll come to thee,

We will no longer part,

Cause I love you & you love me,

Let’s make a brand new start,

Unlock my heart,

Set me free,

I’ll sing a song,Oh lord hear me,

Let me feel his love once more,

Give me wings so I can fly,

Fly with you away from here,

Solitude I find in you,

Here with me is where you’ll be…

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Insides

A pretender I am,

But my love was real for you,

A pessimist I am,

But i only saw future with you,

You sleeping next to me,

Your smell all over me,

In the morning your face I see,

Greet me with a smile as you kiss me,

I’m living in a dream,

A dream I cant get up from,

Burning inside I long to breathe,

Save me, my heart is torn,

As time pass will you still exist,

Will you be just a memory,

I dont want this distance to persist,

We were meant to be, cant you see…

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Walk With Me

You can walk behind me,

Or you can take my hand,

You can travel with me,

Be with me standing there,

And I will need you with me,

Through all my trials and pain,

Please say you’ll stay with me,

Your presence keeps me sane,

Cause I want you to hold me,

Wanna feel you here with me,

I miss your warm embracing,

I love you, what’s more to say,

Come back to me with open arms,

I wanna fly away with you,

Place your hands onto my palms,

Walk with me along this path..

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