Missing You

April 25th, 2009

It’s only been awhile, and my heart is calling out your name

The overwhelming surprise that you left a mark so powerful

An indication that you are here with me despite the unspoken of distance,

I get the feel that I have reached the deep end for you and I am not afraid to admit that I love you…

It ain’t easy to want to scream your name instead whispers follow

For you are so far away and the only message I can get across

Are the beatings of my hearts in sync rhythm with yours..

The smell of what reminds me of you

Sweeps pass my senses as I carry on throughout the day

I know you are with me, as I recount the events of yesterday

I know you are with me, a deep treasured chest I hold so dear

I’m afraid of losing the vulnerability I have now

I’m afraid of the shield that I would build up as a result

I know that the love will never die down, so on that note,

It’s for certain that I would be jumping in your arms in no time…

I miss having your hugs to go to for a squeeze

I miss hearing your voice which lifts me up after a bad day

I miss the frustrations you cause when we have our communication default

I miss the after discussion when all is good and thrashed out

A home I have in you, a heart I have because of you

An openness I long to breathe when it concerns you,

Your arms i want to fall into, the minutes, I wished would go quicker

Till the day I feel you close again, feel you close with me….

C.C 09

Heart to Heart

April 25th, 2009

The anticipation for the return

The one true person the heart desires

Longliness creeps in the middle of the night

Silence melts the over ached heart

Instincts of the soul chooses to relate

In a combination of words, an avenue for release

Attempting to retreat into a place of adrenaline

Seeking for adventures, quenching the loneliness

A path that leads to nowhere, she is fully aware

Her feet rooted to the ground, for her one, only

The days passes, the minutes ticked

She knows she’s evolving, her heart is beating

Alive and whole, yet pierced and wounded

The cries, wailing in agony as she awaits….

The return of her true one, her one, only one….

C.C 09

The Being

April 20th, 2009

It’s the assimilation of one’s heart and mind

To be capitulated by one being in a way never before

For a fraction of the time one breathes, one flies

For the time to take to fall in love was never enough

The courteous of souls, the manners of a gentleman

All too easily spoken unless seen by the naked eye

The warmth of a man, the gentleness of a feather friend

All too blind unless felt by one’s own plight

Doubts seldom passed by, Fear rarely got the better

Trust was never the issue, Communication was the matter

The virgins of all virgins was living its name

The downfall it would be to this amazing voyage

Realization set in, one feels the knife pierce

To run a mile away, to stay and face the pain

It was never the question to be heard of

For to leave was a choice to hard to make

It was then one realized the raw emotion one carried

It was then one understood the depth of feelings one had

It was not the same, it was new, and it was foreign, affection to the highest point

It was something to precious to let go off or to contemplate letting go

It was real, it was honest, and it was hers to make whole and home….

The endless sudden distance, puts her bluntly to the test

The independence she deserves yet the softest of love received

She values this gift, the surprising gift of acceptance

One, who is blessed, now sees light to the gray areas

Savoring the abundant hope it brings

To a once murk, shadowy future

Being realistic but appreciating

The being who lifts her high yet accepts her flaws

The being who has her heart in his hands…..

C.C 09’